Wishing the one in the radio named **** was him and actually talking about me.. with that rather close in location (despite the radio frequency based in other city!).. but what then? Even if it's true there are so many so much inhibitions right now, seemingly impossible knots everywhere .. and my other ocean wanting a different person entirely.. also my other oceans and each has their own obsession.. not to mention my fierce werewolves (although I'm wholeheartedly grateful for their existence)..
Still, it would be great if it's truly him out there..
.......... I can start living now. Don't have to wait until I'm a Master-Pirate-Mwahaha.. Or at least maybe I can start living now.. WHAT IFI can start living now?
And you know what, unlike others who still have some backups, I DON'T. I'VE BEEN FIGHTING MOSTLY ALONE SINCE THE BEGINNING. So at least right now I can be tremendously grateful for the gift of personal strength.
Not to mention: I'VE WON. ALL THE TIME. STILL UNTIL NOW. And most likely still in the future. How come I forgot that? Although I'd prefer moving to a better, happier dimension plane - while watching, KNOWING them others down here EVER suffering mwahaha..!!
I can do this.. just like how I passed even worse situations in every way, even with shorter deadlines to get out of the death traps - I. 100% MADE IT. GODDAMNIT!!.. I can do this.. just another stepping stone not really a block.. if I see it that way.. exercise.. the power.. but the eyes fixed.. on the freedom train.. to evolve.. to the direction I truly want..
